northernexposure33 asked:
Hey! It's been a while. How have you been doing?
I answered:
I’m okay. The further I move away from being twenty-something and the closer I get to being almost-thirty, the harder things get. (In some ways they get easier too, but more on that some other time). I have spent the last 800 days dizzy and lost and full of words and feelings. But, I’m sure I’ll hit the surface soon. Until then I’ll keep chipping away. I know that, eventually, in this lump of clay I’ll find my masterpiece.
i’m trying to remember
what life looked like
before you came along
what used to be
now seems bleak and beige
like
some forgotten
coat in
a lost
property box;
the spare key
no-one
used;
the ringtone we didn’t
hear.
i’m so afraid of losing you—
when you hurt me
i know
it’s cos we don’t know how to love
any different
do you know that?
they say that
happy homes bred happy hearts
did you know that?
we’re so unhappy
full of angst
filled to the brim with rage
that we
snort
and
fuck
and
snort
and
fuck
until it all comes out
and then
i fall into you
and
you fall into me
and
as i start to say
that
i’m in love with you
i—
drift off half
way
through
the
—sentence
but you always finish it for me.
